cheesier than cheezy wedges

have been daydreaming a lot.
imagining the day when our path will cross.
when ..*cheesy rocom scenes*
alright i'm gonna stop right here.
it's really annoying, love.

if you cannot stay,
then i wish the love would go away,
out of sight, out of mind they say,
then how come you're faraway,
but in my mind all day?

selamat hari lahir Addin

selamat hari lahir!

happy birthday

sanah helwa

semoga panjang umur murah rezeki

Ratusan ucapan selamat penuh di ruangan sosialmu, inboxmu. Mendoakan seribu satu kebaikan untuk kau.

On birthdays we'd be super happy, excited, anxious. Out of those 365 days, today will be among the best. We'll make plans from day to night. Expecting to be greeted by the warmth of the sun, overwhelmed by the love that surrounds us. Today is going to be superb.
But our plans aren't perfect. Unlike god the future is a mystery to us, only to be known when the times come.

Truth be told i didn't know it's your birthday today and i didn't expect to know it and not have the chance to greet you, wish you happiness and all good things. Maaf lambat. Aku tak sempat nak doakan kau saat kau masih lagi bernafas.

Have you said goodbye to the sun that greet you each day,
Thank your mom and dad for loving you unconditionally,
Appreciate those around you for just being there,
Fulfill your obligations as a servant to Allah,
His chapters are closed but our pages are still running,
Let death be a remembrance to our purpose in life.

Selamat Hari Lahir Addin.
(20 May 1994 - 20 May 2013)

tired of romance

lock your hearts in vaults with chain,
but never you can run from the pain,
tell you he loves you,
tell you he will stay,
but what will you do when he walks away.


for someone whose name means love. aku kurang percaya pada cinta si teruna dan gadis. meski beratus novel cinta kubaca, berpuluh drama romantis kutonton. aku sangsikan kewujudan cinta. bagi aku cinta itu satu fiksen, wujudnya di atas kertas, di kaca tv. di muka bumi, rapuh cinta itu.      

cintakan bunga akan layu,
cintakan manusia akan mati,
cintakan Allah kekal abadi,
itulah cinta, cinta yang hakiki.            

satu-satunya cinta yang kau tak kan rasa kecewa. meski kedengaran klise......and don't even think of saying "macam ustazah kau ni" for the love of Allah surpass all beings.                    

my uncertainties

How do you be certain of things uncertain,
How do you be sure about the future,
It's unknown, unheard, a mystery.
Then, tell me how will I know what's becoming of me in 10 years time.

For the past 2 weeks I've been attending a soft-skill training programs. Today we had a talk on personal development and stuff and in one of the slots the consultant had asked us to close our eyes and imagine ourselves 10 years from now. Hence, the existence of the poem. Come to think of it a lot of consultant, motivators, trainers have always asked us to do so. If you can visualize it, you can be it. The irony of it is that we never know what our future will be like. Will we even be alive in 10 years time?

But I did it anyway and in my imagination I see
A doctor in the O&G department,
A columnist for a newspaper,
A teacher to her children :)

for another day

flower withers,
human dies,
a waste of tears,
if you want to cry.

wrote this short poem couple of months ago. seems heartless and harmless. cold and distinct. Yet when a dear friend's mother lost her fight with leukemia. I couldn't help but cry. Each and everyday there's bound to be death, be it someone you know or not. A promise he made "....every soul shall taste death...." It's inevitable. Hence, be grateful for the days that you got to lived and thankful that your love ones are still alive cause someday you'll die and they'll be gone and regrets are of no use.

cherish the moments,
the people you love,
cause when it's gone,
it's gone forever,
never coming back,
not for a million dollars,
not for the shining sun,
not for the beatles singing 'let it be' on the unicorn,
and yes, not even for you.